“God is the only good in me. That’s it. He’s it. If you think you have something to offer other than your allegiance – that God can use you because of your heart, mind, talent or strength, you don’t get it yet,” Amanda Jenkins admonishes in her book, "Confessions of a Raging Perfectionist." This two hundred and nine page paperback book has a red jacket cover with a white title and is targeted toward Christian women seeking to grow in their personal relationship with God. With no profanity but some slang and adult topics, the book would best be read by married women with children who have a personal relationship with Jesus. Within twelve chapters that read like journal notes inside one’s mind, each starts with a confessional catalog of a specific area the author struggles in, then lists italicized Bible verses and divulges intimate, detailed soul-searching theories and goal-oriented outcomes. At the end of the book, there are over thirty-five pages of discussion questions by chapter theme with space to fill in the blanks for self-reflection. Author Jenkins, who from outward supposed appearances has a perfect life, perfect husband, perfect children and perfect Christian lifestyle, openly admits to her own controlling perfection issues. Digging deeply into her soul and how she should relate to the Creator, her book is a humble, truthful awakening admission that our Lord is in control of everyone and everything, not us in our sinful, prideful and self-absorb state. Told through analogies of movies, television shows, books and experiences, the writer weaves her own fears, failings, and focus aneurysms trying to constantly obtain unattainable goals involving vanity, money, recognition, relationships, parenthood, plans, pride, Christian testimony, obedience to God, and dependence on earthly things as she yearns for contentment, happiness and freedom only available through Jesus. Discussing her own issues with marriage, raising children including adoption, family dynamics and friends’ dilemmas, she concludes that she does not have all the answers except to rely on God for help, love, strength and dignity along with redemption and support to get through each moment of the day He has planned. The author spills her raw, realistic and remorseful emotions in an honest, sometimes witty, sardonic way as she begs for God’s grace, love and gentle correction as the Bible states “For all have sinned, and come short of the glory of God.” Kudos to Jenkins for writing from such a personal perspective that reminds us how we need to take the focus off us and onto our Savior at all times no matter what the cost. With permission, here is Chapter One: http://files.tyndale.com/thpdata/FirstChapters/978-1-4143-7870-1.pdf. And here is the entire Author Q & A: http://mediacenter.tyndale.com/downloads/press_kits/PerfectionistQ
This book was wonderful. It was easy to relate to the author & it was an enjoyable read.